Lately, there are just so many ups and downs in my life and what i thought to be constant is only unstable and very unpredictable. There are just changes that life keeps surprising me with and when I feel so ready and so prepared at the start, I only end up struggling at the end. But I'm just so tired at this point.
But I guess that's just simply life. I mean what more could I ask for if I am comfortable. Changes are supposed to come at you when least expected, and there are supposed to be bumps along the road. Life in general is a struggle. I'm drowning one point then feeling like the happiest girl next. Nobody is perfect, and no life is really complete. Even in my times of struggle and weakness, I just need to be alone. It bothers me a lot when people are able to just move on like nothing is wrong when clearly there are things to be settled.
Another thing I learned recently is the importance of self-sacrifice. I didn't realize this until this year with family and personal relationships. I know that in the instance of having such emotions and feelings powerful enough to sacrifice yourself for another person is just not that easy. I'm still learning and honestly, I struggle with this too.
In the hopes of a better and more productive month, I'm ready to give up a lot of things for better ones. =) Happy thoughts please.
Sandy
